Marking thoughts.

In the last couple of weeks, my therapist compared me to David Foster Wallace and George Saunders. That is, I'm very concerned with figuring out points of view in my writing with the latter, and I put a lot of thought into ethical and kind behaviors and actions with the former. Today she noted the way I look at and take in the world can make the ongoing job hunt difficult, because of how I look at the whole process: being unable to fool myself into playing the game means I can't participate and get where I want within the game. I understand the levels of disingenuousness within the job hunt process, and it makes it a struggle to muster up energy or enthusiasm within the cover letter writing aspect of things.

I spent some time complaining about how I see and receive so much conflicting advice on how to format resumes, and how difficult it is to figure out all the different strategies for each potential industry. There isn't a clear set of guidelines.

She noted I spend a lot of time focusing on figuring out what can be measured - weightlifting, words per day, things like that - so when it's something that's not quite so easily put into objective terms, it's a struggle for me. Which is one of those things that's good to hear coming from someone else, because it's going to push me to pay attention to myself over the next week until the next session.