Something to look into.

Last night I dreamed about buying a sandwich, and subsequently being very disappointed in myself since it was a weekday and I shouldn't have paid for it by credit card. I told my therapist about it - a rare occurrence, since we don't much talk about my dreams, but relevant, since my lack of spending money is part of what puts a hold on my excursions outside my apartment. Restricting my credit card use to the weekends has helped keep me from impulse purchases, and it also keeps me from going out to most museums since I need to draw on cash for the entrance fees.

Getting out of my apartment and out of my head to engage with the world is a struggle right now, since after a while inertia sets in and it's easier to not go anywhere. I suspect this is going to be an ongoing struggle until I get another job. Also, exploring Manhattan isn't as much fun to me, on the whole, as Pittsburgh or San Francisco - so much of it is completely urban, without anything green to speak of, and packed with people that make it hard to walk and look around at the same time. She suggested going up north and walking south, which is the opposite of what I typically do, and that might be a plan for another day.