Upbeat Tuesday.

For the first fifteen minutes of therapy today, all we talked about was the weather, travel, and the Pope's abdication. It was actually really nice - we both like snow and traveling, and we had a lot to say about the nature of faith and the responsibilities of such positions. Whether or not one human can carry all that weight, the simultaneous questions of faith and doubt, stuff like that. I talked about the wellspring of grace needed for such a position, and she talked about the awareness of one's own limitations and ability to accept them. We had fun.

Then I talked about how I felt about my job ending, which wasn't as fun, but I felt a lot better about talking about it than I would have otherwise. It wasn't the first time I've worked myself out of a job or had a position end on me by e-mail, and it wasn't like I had anything pressing waiting for me, so about the only thing I mind about the way it ended was that I didn't get enough lead time to bake a cake to make the end a little more upbeat. I do miss the income, and the structure to my day - we talked about that too, how I'm trying to keep a decent sleep schedule and work on leaving my apartment for more than just therapy, grocery shopping, the gym, and the weekly family dinners. Staying occupied and engaged with the world.

We ended up talking about coffee for a while, and my plans to 'invest misery' into a couple of days each week to get as much job hunting-type work done in as short an amount of time as possible. Which I'd better get on now.