Sentimental thing.
Oct. 11th, 2011 02:27 pmToday I introduced my therapist to Portal. She'd never heard of it, so I spent some time describing the idea of the mechanics and the basic premise. It came up in the context of me doing things, and how that's improving my general mood. There's still the job hunt going on, true, and I've also found other things for my time. The story set I'm working on isn't something I'll see through to publication, but it's long, and I want to finish it, and until it's over it'll occupy my mind and excite me, which is a really nice thing to have at this point.
When she asked about the apartment, I talked about how in the mornings, right after I get out of bed, I'll open up the curtains to let the morning light in and how that wakes me up better than just hitting the alarm. Which led to us talking about alarm clocks for a while, and some of the more absurd ones.
For most of the session, though, we talked about the Occupy Wall Street movement and the meditations on Yom Kippur, and what it means to be aware. So that involved the discussion of how to garner involvement and power to bring about a paradigm shift for long-term changes to the overall system, how one should move forward with their life to be a better person, and also the question of free well. I told her how the answer to 'why does evil exist with free will' is really simple: without free will, there's no choice to be had, leaving actions meaningless. So if one posits God gave humans free will in order for them to make the right choices, one has to accept some humans will make the wrong choices.
As for what it means to be aware, it's the state of paying attention to the world around oneself, generally the physical world one interacts with via the body and the senses. Being able to see the world I live in is an important thing for me, and I try to stay attentive to whether or not I'm aware, or if I'm fatigued and need something new to reinvigorate me.
I told her that yes, I'm in a good spot, but that can easily change in two weeks. In the meantime, I'm trying to enjoy where I am the best I can.
When she asked about the apartment, I talked about how in the mornings, right after I get out of bed, I'll open up the curtains to let the morning light in and how that wakes me up better than just hitting the alarm. Which led to us talking about alarm clocks for a while, and some of the more absurd ones.
For most of the session, though, we talked about the Occupy Wall Street movement and the meditations on Yom Kippur, and what it means to be aware. So that involved the discussion of how to garner involvement and power to bring about a paradigm shift for long-term changes to the overall system, how one should move forward with their life to be a better person, and also the question of free well. I told her how the answer to 'why does evil exist with free will' is really simple: without free will, there's no choice to be had, leaving actions meaningless. So if one posits God gave humans free will in order for them to make the right choices, one has to accept some humans will make the wrong choices.
As for what it means to be aware, it's the state of paying attention to the world around oneself, generally the physical world one interacts with via the body and the senses. Being able to see the world I live in is an important thing for me, and I try to stay attentive to whether or not I'm aware, or if I'm fatigued and need something new to reinvigorate me.
I told her that yes, I'm in a good spot, but that can easily change in two weeks. In the meantime, I'm trying to enjoy where I am the best I can.