Adult-type time obligations.
Jul. 30th, 2010 10:42 pmMy part-time job's done, classes are over, and I finished my field placement last week. And now that I've got free time, I don't know how to spend it. I could end up rushing here and there and zooming around trying to cram stuff in, always thinking there's something else I could be doing, whether it's going to someplace completely new or taking it easy in a local coffee shop. I need to let that thinking go. I know it's okay that I didn't spend my time going to, say, the Chatham Arboretum: I didn't know about it, I spent a lot of Saturdays reading for class, I kept my weekdays pretty busy, and I know it's okay I didn't go. I'm starting to think two years is the minimum amount of time to get to know a new place. I'd like to see all sorts of things, but if I start a checklist, I know I won't really enjoy the things the same way as just going because I want to go. I shouldn't feel an obligation for liesure.
I've got a few things that are time-sensitive needs, like closing my local bank account, changing my address for school paperwork, packing to move, and the ongoing job search. So there's all that. And it won't take all my time, but even with an accommodating bus schedule, I can't fit everything into the next few days. It's just as well - like I said, I know I shouldn't try just because the things are there. A while back I read a short magazine editorial by a retiree discussing how he and his wife decided against going to Japan because, as he put it, Japan had done just fine without them and didn't need them to visit. The Chatham Arboretum doesn't need me to come; it's doing just fine without me and it'll be fine if I don't go.
As much as I'd like to go tomorrow or next Thursday or even next Saturday I don't know if I'll have the time. I do know what I want to see isn't going anywhere, so if I decide to come back to Pittsburgh for a little vacation in the future - it's an extremely affordable city and it's always got something going on, like last week's Vintage Grand Prix which is worth a full weekend alone - then what I want to see will be here if I come around again.
I've got a few things that are time-sensitive needs, like closing my local bank account, changing my address for school paperwork, packing to move, and the ongoing job search. So there's all that. And it won't take all my time, but even with an accommodating bus schedule, I can't fit everything into the next few days. It's just as well - like I said, I know I shouldn't try just because the things are there. A while back I read a short magazine editorial by a retiree discussing how he and his wife decided against going to Japan because, as he put it, Japan had done just fine without them and didn't need them to visit. The Chatham Arboretum doesn't need me to come; it's doing just fine without me and it'll be fine if I don't go.
As much as I'd like to go tomorrow or next Thursday or even next Saturday I don't know if I'll have the time. I do know what I want to see isn't going anywhere, so if I decide to come back to Pittsburgh for a little vacation in the future - it's an extremely affordable city and it's always got something going on, like last week's Vintage Grand Prix which is worth a full weekend alone - then what I want to see will be here if I come around again.
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