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On pattern recognition.
There's a fairly major archivist's group with local meetings that I haven't yet done much to get in touch with. Similarly, I don't tell my dad if I'm having a bad day, like if I'm too anxious in the morning to think about going to my volunteer gig. In both cases, I'm convinced there's no point, as I won't be able to accomplish anything - I know going in that no amount of effort I expend will result in a reward for me, either in terms of professional development or empathy.
I didn't tell my therapist this; we kept on talking about On Killing and why children's movies should be taken seriously. It's something that's a pattern, though, and I need to pay attention to it, to better take advantage of opportunities in the future.
We did talk about the necessity of knowing it's all right to be scared. I almost cried talking about how I felt after I moved to New York and all the pressures I had to cope with, internally, externally, and professionally, and how no one ever said it was safe or acceptable to be stressed or frightened. It would've helped a lot, hearing that.
I didn't tell my therapist this; we kept on talking about On Killing and why children's movies should be taken seriously. It's something that's a pattern, though, and I need to pay attention to it, to better take advantage of opportunities in the future.
We did talk about the necessity of knowing it's all right to be scared. I almost cried talking about how I felt after I moved to New York and all the pressures I had to cope with, internally, externally, and professionally, and how no one ever said it was safe or acceptable to be stressed or frightened. It would've helped a lot, hearing that.