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Current Music: nothing now

Fuckers.

I very much want to post an entry ranting about a large number of subjects, but I know there's no point in it - for one thing, I'd offend the musical sensibilities of a significant number of people who read this journal, and anger's more or less a wasted emotion.

I still don't anticipate anyone asking me about anything at all, which will pretty much guarantee disappointment, but as long as I'm prepared for that I should be reasonably well-off.

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Wait, what?

I have no idea what the hell you are talking about, hon.

ETA: are you all right?

Edited 2010-02-27 23:48 (UTC)

I don't really know - I'm upset and depressed, and somewhat in the mindset of needing to be taken out back and beaten with sticks, and I don't know how much of it can be fixed by a good dinner and night of sleep. I tend to keep most of my feelings to myself, so I'm not sure if I should delete this entry or not, because my demonstration of this sort of emotion is very gauche in my mind.

ETA: The people asking me about stuff is for illustrations for a story people agreed to provide, but if they don't ask me they won't know what anything looks like. So I'm not hoping for much of anything for that.

Edited 2010-02-27 23:52 (UTC)

Oh, okay. Unexplained crappy moods do happen to the best of us, and I don't think there's much wrong with telling one's f-list that one is in that state of mind.

It was the wording of the post that baffled me. Because you didn't specify what it was you didn't expect to be asked about, I thought you meant that you didn't think anyone was going to do what I did, and ask what was the matter.

I confess I still have no idea what you mean with the "my rant would offend people's musical sensibilities" part. Your housemates are perhaps playing Nine Inch Nails at concert volume?

To be honest about it, I'm not used to people asking me how I am. When it does happen, I'm never expecting it.

Less concert volume and more that I want to yell at people to make them realize nothing that's come out of American Idol has redeeming value and that pretty boys ought to be ignored until they go away and that most of what came out of America in the 1990s isn't worth spit.

*laughs*

Oh, I can assure you at least that you're not going to offend me -- or most of the other people I know on your f-list -- with that opinion. It's one of the myriad reasons I have ZERO interest in Idol.

Hannah, what's wrong, sweetie?

ETA: Okay, I see your reply to blackmare. A good dinner and a good night's sleep might help even out your mood some. I'm sorry about the rest -- sometimes things just come out of nowhere and seem insurmountable for all of us. {{{hugs}}}

Edited 2010-02-28 00:05 (UTC)

A cluster of poorly-timed and badly-scheduled events building up into an emotional boil that needs to be lanced.

I'll have some more cherry chocolate tonight.

See, but this kind of venting is why we have friends-lists (and, when needed, custom groups filters).

So. No need to feel bad for spilling some of it here. We all know you're bitching near us, not at us.

I don't want to do it because a lot of it would boil down to me yelling that I have better taste than everyone else, and they should stop having fun. And I feel like I should be better than that, and not get annoyed when other people have different tastes, even if I don't get why they like the stuff they do.

*hugs you*

Chocolate is indeed helpful! I myself am currently having some 85% fantasticness.

I'm sorry to hear you're having such a cascade of troubles! We're here for you, if you'd like to vent some steam.

The collective noun's actually a sea of troubles ("...and by opposing, end them").

Steam's been vented with a long, hot shower and milk chocolate with a liquid cherry filling that tasted like real black cherries.

Ah, thanks! I was unsure, and thought 'sea' of troubles was a cliche. This is good to know!

I'm glad to hear that steam has been vented!

Nope. Shakespeare. Also, it's a comedy of errors, which can be very handy.

This is your journal - you are supposed to vent. I know that when things conspire to clusterfuck, that it's just hell.

Get something you really want for dinner, and get a good long sleep.

There were several times this morning I looked at my bedside clocked, considered it, and then flopped back under the covers. Amazing what a good bout of REM can do for one's outlook.

*hugs*

*hugs back*

*hugs*

This is your journal, you can rant away all you like. That's what we're here for.

And for the record, I completely agree with you regarding American Idol. It's total crap.

I feel weird about ranting about things like that, even when I'm angry, because I understand on some level there's got to be some entertainment value, even if it doesn't offer anything social redeeming - I think it boils down to the selfish feeling of wanting to talk about what I want to talk about. Which I can live with, especially after a good night of sleep.

*hugs back*

Hm. I don't think it's offensive to express exasperation with something that one encounters everywhere one turns -- on TV, in the newspaper, online all over the place, on the radio, everywhere. I don't see "Can there please be ONE PLACE in my life where I don't have to hear about this show?" as being at all the same thing as telling people they shouldn't enjoy it.

The thing that's holding me back is that none of it's omnipresent, just consistent, and most of it's on Livejournal. And it's not just Idol, either, but a lot of stuff in that sort of flash-silly vein, like real-person fic for figure skaters and Idol contestants, nearly all of which makes me want to go rewatch the episodes of Deadwood with the smallpox epidemic to wash out my system.

Escapism comes in many forms, I suppose.

It would be a severe waste of energy for anyone to be offended over something so subjective. If they were, I would just ignore it.

I said to someone else in this post I don't want to yell at people for having fun, so I just need to take the time to know not to be around the Internet when I'm upset.

Honey, this is your journal and you need to write what you need to write in it. If you want to rant, please rant. Bottling stuff up inside will just stress you out. Anger isn't a wasted emotion, it's a perfectly valid emotion that you are perfectly justified to express from time to time.

I know. I just feel bad if I do it around other people who might get upset over something I say in the heat of the moment, like yelling at them to fuck off or a similar sentiment.

Edited 2010-02-28 21:17 (UTC)

*hug, a thousand times*

*hugs you right back*

*sends Castiel over*

Well, I think it's your right to rant about whatever you want! I suppose it is difficult to have 'unpopular fannish opinions' sometimes.

I hope you are okay.

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