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Creative issues.
Instead of accepting the offer to go to Coney Island, I decided to stay in to write and do some PT. The latter because my leg's been giving me grief and pain for a while and I can't muscle through it, and the former because writing usually makes me happy.
However.
The last few weeks, it's been more difficult than usual. I could say tonight is because I've heavily cut down on caffeine, but it's felt like this other days, too. It doesn't feel the way it did at the start or early stages of the project. It's always been a slower rate of words per hour than other things I've done - taking upward of three hours to hit the daily thousand takes is common, instead of maybe an hour and a half or two - and right now it feels more of a struggle to get the images into words and the words in the right order. It's gotten to the point of frustration that I want to track someone down and ask them to assess the number of words and clauses per sentence to see if there's a cut-off point that can indicate when things started to sour.
I'm not blocked and I'm not empty; I have the desire to create and ideas to pursue, but the energy and spirit are hard to access. I'm going to keep waiting on this until after I pick up my caffeine intake again - past that, I'm going to start getting genuinely worried about things like sleep and neurological conditions.
However.
The last few weeks, it's been more difficult than usual. I could say tonight is because I've heavily cut down on caffeine, but it's felt like this other days, too. It doesn't feel the way it did at the start or early stages of the project. It's always been a slower rate of words per hour than other things I've done - taking upward of three hours to hit the daily thousand takes is common, instead of maybe an hour and a half or two - and right now it feels more of a struggle to get the images into words and the words in the right order. It's gotten to the point of frustration that I want to track someone down and ask them to assess the number of words and clauses per sentence to see if there's a cut-off point that can indicate when things started to sour.
I'm not blocked and I'm not empty; I have the desire to create and ideas to pursue, but the energy and spirit are hard to access. I'm going to keep waiting on this until after I pick up my caffeine intake again - past that, I'm going to start getting genuinely worried about things like sleep and neurological conditions.