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hannah ([personal profile] hannah) wrote2022-01-23 10:01 pm

I call him Ben.

Challenge #12

In your own space, tell us who you would recast in a film, tv series or webseries, or maybe someone voicing a cartoon or videogame. Or who would you cast to play a character in a book, comic or maybe even your own fiction! Leave a comment in this post saying you did it. Include a link to your post if you feel comfortable doing so.


This is something that can't happen because the person I imagine for this casting died several years ago.

It's because of his death that I imagined him for this to begin with.

Because it hurt to see pictures of Anton Yelchin after he died, it hurt. His death hit me harder than any other celebrity or artist's death - I could get into why, but there's no real point, not when I kept looking at pictures of him and feeling that hurt and knowing that what was there would be all there was. No more. I always wanted more for him, from him,

I'd been idly playing with an original story idea - I still am, slowly - and I took my story in one hand and my feelings in another and clapped my hands together, and decided that when I'd imagine the main character, I'd imagine Anton Yelchin. Because it wouldn't bring him back, it wouldn't change anything in the world, but it'd help me feel a little better because I'd look at pictures of his face and think, Yes, that's the character laughing. Yes, that's him smiling.

The story has gone through fits and starts, a couple rough drafts, some handwritten pages in a notebook. It hasn't really gone anywhere, but when I think about it, I think of Anton Yelchin, in a thing that won't ever happen, but lets me think of him with a little bit more lightness, and bear the grief a little better. I hope to see the story finished someday, even if only to have finally told it to myself.

Benjamin House. Son of my right hand in Hewbrew, and gosling in Czech.

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[personal profile] panisdead 2022-01-24 04:05 am (UTC)(link)
in a thing that won't ever happen, but lets me think of him with a little bit more lightness

This is painful, but lovely all the same. I hope you finish the story, for yourself, and as a way to keep bringing him forward with you.
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[personal profile] mesotablar 2022-01-24 04:14 am (UTC)(link)
I'm glad you are managing to give him life once more. I have been snipered in the guts by celebrity deaths before, and I have to say I think you are really strong for writing that work. It doesn't matter if it happens in fits and starts, what is important is that it is started.
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[personal profile] yourlibrarian 2022-01-24 06:06 pm (UTC)(link)
I only knew him from Trek, although after his death I saw a few other films with him. Very talented, and a real loss. I suppose it was both his age and his manner of death that made it particularly tragic for me -- I thought of him just the other day.