hannah | Today's therapy takeaway.

Today in therapy I compared using the career counselor to a dentist: someone I went to for routine maintenance, not frequent check-ups. Mostly, it was me needing to let go of any thoughts of obligation to her. I talked about how in our last session, she started doing it outside with me having to ask her to go inside a room with a door she could close. I also talked about how I'd wanted her to be the one to reach out to me, as my regular therapist did - I know she's said it's not her responsibility, but I wanted to think that she might make at least a token effort beyond a generic BCC email sent from her practice to all her clients about fall scheduling. I doubted she would, and I'd wanted, anyway.

I don't know why I'm so disappointed in something I had such security about.

I might still get in touch with her for something later, when I need her. Or I might ask my therapist if she knows anyone who knows anyone who can suggest someone else when I need help again. It remains frustrating that this was the first experience I had with someone who could help on a genuinely practical level.

And I have to let that all go, at this point. Next week I need to talk about how to say something instead of simply leaving it all in silence.