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A little more scared.
Another two or three nights and I should be done with this round of edits. I've gone through beta comments and I've got a list of notes for small things to fiddle with and then it's back out to everyone.
It's weird - I don't feel like I have any excuses or margins of error right now, which isn't something I've ever felt before. Wanting to prove myself and my voice in a fandom, sure. Making sure the work I've done is worth other people's time, that too. But Buffy is such a well-established fandom I never thought I'd ever get anywhere near, not even watching, much less participation, and what I'm doing doesn't seem to have ever been done yet and it's an old-school fandom juggernaut that makes Deep Space Nine look cozy...I don't have any excuses. I've gotten a lot of help for a lot of things with this, but in the end it's all on me. And I don't have any excuses if it's not as good as I know it can be.
Which I guess is a good mentality to get into for pursuing original fiction.
It's weird - I don't feel like I have any excuses or margins of error right now, which isn't something I've ever felt before. Wanting to prove myself and my voice in a fandom, sure. Making sure the work I've done is worth other people's time, that too. But Buffy is such a well-established fandom I never thought I'd ever get anywhere near, not even watching, much less participation, and what I'm doing doesn't seem to have ever been done yet and it's an old-school fandom juggernaut that makes Deep Space Nine look cozy...I don't have any excuses. I've gotten a lot of help for a lot of things with this, but in the end it's all on me. And I don't have any excuses if it's not as good as I know it can be.
Which I guess is a good mentality to get into for pursuing original fiction.
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